Seeking To Loose My Golden Handcuffs

It is a little after seven in the morning and it is dark & cold. My feeling is if the sun isn't up, I don't want to be awake (a stange thing to write for a night shift worker).

I am a psychiatric RN and this is the best job I have ever had. It pays well and I like the people I work with. I am tired of being a nurse. I resent my patients (not a good thing) and want to do something more exciting. I want to make a difference. I wat to make more money. I am 1/2 way through a psychiatric nurse practitioner program and Iam not happy. It isn't just that I am struggling with my neurophysiology class (which I am). I am not excited about working with psychological disorders. Blood & guts turns my stomach so being a real RN is not an option. I am thinking i need to find anotherway.

At 56 I would hope that I had answered the philosphical question, "What am I going to do when I grow Up?" One answer is not to grow up (am I a Peter Pan?) but that is hard to do. I have tried marrying nursing with real estate investing. I bought an assisted living facility (buy it and they will come?). I bought it and then bought the financial farm so to speak. I am looking into starting sober housing for the homeless but am asking myself, what's in it for me (financially)?

Thought about being a consultant but quickly saw I know nothing people will pay to share. Plan 'B' (I always think of plan 'B' or 'C or even 'L') is I am looking for a MLM I can start. What product would lend itself to this form of marketing that hasn't already been done? I know people that get in early and develop effective downlines make a lot of money. I imagine if ALL THE DOWNLINES spring from me, I would be financially secure. What would this product or ervice look like?

Marty

5 Bizniks have posted replies

Posted by Jane Blinka, Ferndale, Washington | Nov 16, 2008

Martin, this is a really fertile conversation you have going on within yourself. And I am wondering where, outside of this forum, you have had the opportunity to speak with others about your current status. It sounds like you are poised on the edge of monumental change - and needing to do some more verbal processing outside of your own skin.

You want to do something more exciting and you want to make a difference. Those two concepts are very energizing statements. They speak to me of your core, of a level of being that underlies the solitary financial dimension of your questioning. Does the issue of where to house the homeless really light your fire? Then the question evolves into how to work with that population while serving your financial health. I can relate to your quandary because I have experienced a similar one. My answer has been to examine a lot of core beliefs about prosperity and value and personal worthiness, discuss those insights with others I trust to speak honestly and supportively, and then activate around new ways of organizing my mind, my activity and my attention.

I don't know anything about MLM, but I can speak passionately about what radical inner transformation has done for me. I salute you for your willingness to share your internal dialogue in an open forum. I encourage you to follow your intuition and access more of the direct, person-to-person events here through Biznik, and keep opening up through these fearless self examinations. I know others share similar experiences (even if they didn't find their way to reading/posting on this thread.) You have a world of compassionate people here to share with.
Posted by Ari Klein, Seattle, Washington | Nov 25, 2008

Marty,

I just noticed your post and hope you are in a better space now. You are not only not alone, you are at normal place for someone in their 40s...the "I thought this is where I wanted to be, but it's not, and I want to make a real difference".

Jane makes some good points: Don't keep all this bottled up inside. Just writing this post shows your commitment to move forward! It's time for looking backward, inward and outward, THEN forward. Backward to what the things are that you have enjoyed in nursing (carry these forward) and what you fantasized doing with your life early on , Inward to get back in touch with your values, and what energizes you, OUTWARD to talk with people in any and all areas that interest you, research, then go back INWARD to see if these resonate with you. When you narrow these down you'll go FORWARD. I understand that you're a bit gun shy and frustrated from recent ventures..consider it learning. Over the years I've had many clients who moved from salaried to entreprenurial roles successfully following this path (both for profit and non-profit). Blocks, conscious and subconscious can be overcome when light, the goal, is bright enough!

Others have walked this path before you, and you can do it successfully!

-Ari

Ari Klein|Seattle Hypnotherapy and Coaching
Posted by David Johanson, Bellevue, Washington | Jan 16, 2009

wow, that is a MLM pitch
Posted by Lara Feltin, Seattle, Washington | Jun 19, 2009

Great conversation going here, guys. I love to see these kinds of deep-rooted soul searching discussions happening in an online community. This is an example of how business networking isn't just about referrals. The real magic happens when we reach out to one another for support and inspiration.

I hate to sound like I'm throwing water on the fire - but because the concept of MLM has been mentioned 3 times in this dialog, I just want to put out a gentle reminder to the membership, that Biznik is a MLM-Free Zone. That means that you may not promote or even mention a MLM business or it's products or services on Biznik or at a Biznik event. Not that I believe a violation occurred in this conversation - just a reminder that if you do choose to start an MLM business, you may not promote it here.

Read Biznik's No MLM Policy here.

Basically the policy in a nutshell says: If you participate in a business other than one that violates Biznik's No MLM policy, and if you can successfully promote it without mention of the violating company or its products, you may promote your non-violating business on Biznik. If your primary business is in any way associated with a company in violation, then Biznik is not the right fit for you.

Hang in there, Marty, you're doing good work.

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Posted by Martin Greenberg, Seattle, Washington | Jun 19, 2009

Dear Lara:

This is obviosly not a great conversation. Judge by the paucity of views and responses.

I have no idea how the banned business plan inserted itself in the conversation. It is one of many things I have no idea about.

Been doing street photography for the past couple of months. Outside of vehicular transactions, I have never had contact with the police. That is, until I started taking photographs of people on the streets. The tradition of photographing people on the streets goes back to the early 20th century. I certainly didn't invent it. I have had thrtee encounters with the SPD in the last five weeks. Last week I was banned from setting foot on Pike Street Market property for a year. I was threatened personally, I was threatened with arrest twice, and the threat of arrest jeoperdized my ability to practice my profession.

I have filed a grievance with the police. I am looking into legal remedies to the harassment.

My advice to anybody wanting to add meaning into their life is to be careful what you do. The police do not have enough to do vis-a-vis the war on crime and may declare war on you.

I am giving up photography for now and returning to graduate school. Maybe in a little more than a year I will expand my practice and be a psychiatric nurse practitioner. I am also looking at starting a real estate investing business. Sleep is for whimps.

Marty