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Rev. Elke Siller Macartney
Wise Woman, Shaman, Wedding Celebrant, Aura Portraits
LaConner, Washington
Posted by Rev. Elke Siller Macartney, LaConner, Washington | Oct 06, 2009

Subscribe to Turquoise Tribe - Discussion what do you do with panic about business? Encouragement please.

Question for my forward thinking entrepreneurs:

I am wondering what other long-time entrepreneurs do to keep up one's spirits when one is unsure and in a bit of a panic about paying the bills---um, not that I know anyone who feels this way, of course. I'm just asking...

The truth is, after a pretty good week client wise, but after another month of not being able to pay the bills, I found myself in a rare, but intense puddle of panic.

What do you do to work with these feelings and doubts?

blessing and welcoming all answers.

Rev. Elke

12 Bizniks have posted replies

  • Trina Bol
    Posted by Trina Bol, Mount Vernon, Washington | Oct 06, 2009

    So I have a few things that I do. Generally the first thing I do is go to the water. Standing on the shore, listening to the lapping of the water and seeing an endless stretch of water in front of me reminds me that I am part of a bigger whole and that the situation I am in at the moment is just a part of the bigger whole of my life. It puts me back in the right mind frame to make forward progression.

    Second, I pick up a book, listen to an audio or a teleseminar that puts me back in the "positive" mind frame.

    Third, I write down all the negatives in one column and then in the another column I turn them into positives. Example: Negative = no money to pay all my bills. Positive = all my basic needs are being met. It really helps to change my focus to the positive aspect of what I am currently feeling as a negative.

    Last but not least - I keep a daily graititude journal. It helps to go back and reread all the reasons I have to be grateful for the place I find myself in at this current time.

  • Kenton Bolte
    Posted by Kenton Bolte, Seattle, Washington | Oct 07, 2009

    Elke,

    There is so much to say.

    I love you and all that you bring to this world. You matter.

    Well I think there a a variety of things going on here. Remember, questions are a way to power, so I will ask you questions to ask yourself. Power also can be found by standing at a boundry, like water and land, as Trina suggested.

    First STOP, its OK if things fall apart. Where am I internally? Whose running the show? Is the kid, parent or adult running the show? Is there any self judgement about NOT paying the bills? Am I the kind of person who can't pay their bills? Is this my kid, parent or adult talking? Usually its my kid and my kid shouldn't be in charge of bills. My adult, problem solver has that job.

    Remember, we work for Goddess/God and an awesome one at that.

    Second, I focus on matra, God/Goddess and get in this now. Breath and center myself. Most of my anxiety is future based. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know two things. Thought plus emotion manifest and happiness is a CHOICE.

    Next, Feel. Don't explain it, don't talk about it, don't define it. Feel with your body without explaining or acting out. You can safely feel anything.

    If you find yourself judging yourself, you will then probably find yourself judging yourself for judging yourself....sorry, but that one cracks me up, so that's how I get happy.

    Get help, which you are doing here.

    Celebrate. I brush me teeth. I heard a bird singing. Like Trina said, what did I do well today. Gratitude. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. Thank you for this breath.

    Now, empowered in your own presence, tapped into higher consciousness, you could even call up people you want to pay and negotiate if that's what it takes.

    No judgement, just empowered curiosity.

    You are sooo awesome, just like Goddess.

  • Rachel Whalley
    Posted by Rachel Whalley, Seattle, Washington | Oct 07, 2009

    Love Kenton's response.

    Wow, I go into this state at least once a month...sometimes once a day.

    Isn't it just the mantle we indie biz-ers wear by nature of our circumstances?

    I think so.

    What do I do when I feel worried about money, judgmental that I'm not earning "enough," and even panicky that I might need to stop doing what I'm doing?

    Well, lately, I stop. I just hold still and check in with my parts and my body.

    I reconnect to Presence, core Self, higher Self, Spirit, however you word it.

    And I, too, remind myself of the difference between "not fully comfortable" and "at the end of my rope."

    If I'm not at the rope's end, it's time to realign my parts, remind all my little inner children that business/financial success isn't the same as "I'm already enough," and then, from a grounded and heart-centered place, breathe some new energy into my business.

    I write a blog post, or get back on Biznik, or attend an event, or even take a nap in my office after visioning the next ideal client who will reach out to me.

    Speaking of breathing energy into our businesses, Elke, what happened to the manifesting discussion thread in Turquoise Tribe?

    I would love to start a new one. You in?

  • Rev. Elke Siller Macartney
    Posted by Rev. Elke Siller Macartney, LaConner, Washington | Oct 07, 2009

    Rachel ....I am in! and thanks for the thoughtful comments you all. Start up the new thread for new thought manifestations, Rachel...it is time for us entrepreneurs to shine.

  • Rev. Elke Siller Macartney
    Posted by Rev. Elke Siller Macartney, LaConner, Washington | Oct 07, 2009

    The following was posted in the biztalk version of this discussion (why not share this with the greater community?) and I wanted to share with your other wonderful responses....enjoy!

    wow. and I mean wow.

    Thoughtful, bright ideas and help, right when I (and others, I presume ) need it.

    The question was originally posted on facebook-- I was looking for...well I don't know what I was looking for exactly, but the encouragement has been flowing steadily since that post a few days ago. The magnificent Tshombe Brown, a biznik aficionado, suggested I post the question to biz talk....and look at the harvest here!

    To Howard, Judy, Arthur, Christian, Sheila, Richard and Mark(and other posters to come): Thank you from my determined-to-be-an entrepreneur's heart. No, it is not the easy path I (or you) chose, but it has been my way of life for 24 years now--my indie anniversary was on the day of my original facebook post--go figure. Enacting all of the above suggestions and thoughts have brought me through my scariest times. My hubby and I have come close to bankruptcy several times, my reputation has soared with the eagles, and sunk with the weight of rumors and slander; my attitude has mostly been one of gratitude, but occasionally my human takes over and stirs up my fear in order to "keep me safe" from getting too big for my britches--whatever that means.

    Here is what I AM doing with the current puddle jumping (thanks Howard for pointing out my own metaphor): I am cleaning up my bookkeeping system, and have just learned Quickbooks so I can keep better track of $$.

    I am updating brochures, posters and business cards and adverts where I have them.

    I am spending time in gratitude for my livelihood and liveliness and life in general. What a gift.

    Mostly, I am keeping a commitment I made to myself: I am completing a non-fiction book about creating our future by early November, when I will travel to Ashland, Oregon to work. I promised my sponsor there I would hold a special reading for them, and he was thrilled!

    For quite some time now, I have known that the power of a well selling book is what will bring my particular business to the next level of sustainable success. So I will sign off with this story of success :

    My first book, entitled Be YourSelf Boldly, was published 15 years ago, and had a limited run of a few thousand copies. The publisher went out of business a long time ago, and I have not done much with the book ever since. A few days ago, there was a message on my business phone from a woman who had just moved to Seattle from the Midwest. She was in transitional housing, and was starting her life all over again. While rummaging through a Salvation Army bargain book basket, she came upon a little book, Be YourSelf Boldly--Honoring the Free Spirit Within, and read it in one sitting. She then read it a few more times, and wrote in the margins, underlined phrases, etc... She found it to be so inspirational, she went to a library computer to look up the author, and found my biznik page and my personal website, and called to say she wanted an aura portrait session with me.

    Now, I happen to be having a half-off sale on my services, and she said she could afford this. She also stated she had no transportation, so we brainstormed a way to get to my rural tourist town by train....talk about motivation! I look forward to picking her up at the station...and (top secret) gifting her with a free session.

    Time to get going...I have a few more bills to pay, a book to write, and a conference speaking engagement (in San Diego next week! ) to prepare for.

    The panic puddle has dried up for now, but the resource pool is filled to the brim.

    In gratitude,

    Elke

  • Marcie Boitano Oliver
    Posted by Marcie Boitano Oliver, Redmond, Washington | Oct 12, 2009

    Elke, I thought a great deal about how to answer your question. In fact, I started writing an answer the day you sent it and apparently it wasn't the answer you needed - the computer gnome ate it and it never made it off of my desk top.

    This panic - this fear - is something I think most entrepreneurs face. It is certainly one that I have faced repeatedly. Hmmmm. Repeatedly. That means that what I was doing in the past was not resolving the condition that created the "problem".

    What I now believe is true for me is that I in fact feared the power of money. Silly isn't it? Yet it is the grease in the machine that allows our society to run. Having a lot of money means that I will be able to affect some of the positive changes in this world that are important to me.

    So, now I LOVE money! When those old fears try to sneak back in I take time to meditate and visualize thousands of happy dollars running toward me, arms open with huge grins on their face, delighted that they will be used in such a positive way.

    Sounds silly - but it works!

  • Rachel Whalley
    Posted by Rachel Whalley, Seattle, Washington | Oct 12, 2009

    Wow, that's a really thought-provoking response, Marcie!

    It makes me question whether I'm really using my money to make positive changes in the world.

    I'm supporting businesses, surely, but...am I making the world a better place through my purchasing power?

    Are my dollars really happy to run into my arms, knowing that they'll be an influence for good? Hmmmm...

    Thanks for the food for thought!

  • Rachel Whalley
    Posted by Rachel Whalley, Seattle, Washington | Oct 12, 2009

    Ok, the new manifestation discussion is up! Thanks, Elke for the push!

  • Rev. Elke Siller Macartney
    Posted by Rev. Elke Siller Macartney, LaConner, Washington | Oct 13, 2009

    just a quick response to you gals, Marcie and Rachel:

    woohoo!

    I have had a bit of a shift this week...perhaps not with smiling dollar bills running into my arms, but a new perspective of my life as an entrepreneur: I am a modern day alchemist. I take the lead of old thought-forms and business ideas and transmute the energy into gold: golden opportunities, golden moments in my work...and maybe, just maybe the kind of gold I can distribute to OTHER entrepreneurs, and spread the love around.

    My playing small and poor helps no-one. Thanks for reminding me and all of us, of our manifestation powers.

    abundant blessings

    Elke

  • Marcie Boitano Oliver
    Posted by Marcie Boitano Oliver, Redmond, Washington | Oct 19, 2009

    I am delighted and humbled that my words may have helped. I love the thread that you have started Rachel. May it help the many of us entrepreneurs create the grass-roots change that is so necessary in our shift to the new age.

    Namaste.

    Marcie

  • Rachel Whalley
    Posted by Rachel Whalley, Seattle, Washington | Oct 19, 2009

    Thanks, Marcie! I hope to see your affirmations in there, too, so I can help support them.

  • Rev. Elke Siller Macartney
    Posted by Rev. Elke Siller Macartney, LaConner, Washington | Oct 19, 2009

    Yay! get in the manifestation posting, and contribute and receive our love and support, all posters above!

    sending love from Sand Diego, where I am resting beachside as we speak (see my posting in the manifestation discussion)... love to all, Elke

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